I have been mulling over my identity a lot recently. It's something that I haven't really considered extensively before now... or I should say, I have, but it's been more of a surface question before now, and less of a holistic, deep delving question.
As this blog states, I consider myself a cyborg. A cyborg, which is a merging of human and technology. But I have recently been realizing something. I am not actually merged. I still think of myself as half Katy, the machine privileged person, and half Emma, the natural human privileged person. And the fact that Katy is privileged in that sentence should tell you something. To a certain extent, Katy seems more self actualized than Emma does. Her character has been explored, and delved into, and tested. Emma, who is the oldest side of me, but who is socially awkward, has not explored the full extent of her identity.
Again, as I state in the tabs at the top of the cite, I do not literally see myself as two people, it is more of a metaphorical split. I am just more uncomfortable with myself as a human being than I am as a cyborg. However, if we are all natural cyborg perhaps I should stop seeing my two 'realities' as "split".
The cyborg is a merging of human and machine. That means there is one human/machine hybrid in me, not two, or even more identities. We may feel, as cyborgs, that we have different identities, but in reality, our identities still converge within ourselves. This is why the cyborg is an empowering, and not disabling identity.
So... my premise behind this blog was a little off. I need to redo the tabs at the top of the page. The cyborg is not a seperate identity, it is a merging of the physical and technological into one, new, holistic identity.
I also need to start understanding myself, this strange Emma/Katy hybrid, a little better.
At this point in time, Emma is going through some rapid catch-up growth. She and Katy are finally beginning to converge. :)
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